Inspire

I promise my self that from today onwards, I should only say positive things, words or what so ever. Ok, only positive words. But sorry, I couldnt hide them. I am actually very frustrated with his results. Final exam result for form 4. Of course, there were some improvement compared to his mid-term, but still not to the standard that I set for. He had all the alphabet from B to F. Only one B and none is A. The grades were like a slap on my face!

One year.. that is all he has to ensure his place in university, his future and what he will be in the next 20 years. He must do well in his SPM! no failures! he must get lots of As! I want As!

So, from today, I will focus all my time and energy just to make sure that he could achieve good results in his SPM 2011. I told him, I want him to get 9As for his SPM. His answer was: IMPOSSIBLE. I replied: NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE! I tried to tell him that, if he really want As, he will get it. He just need to develop his self-confidence. He just need to work and study extra hard. He just have to focus on studies. Forget about friends, girlfriends or what so ever. Forget about games, basketball etc.. only for one year. ONE year. Just concentrate on studies and focus. FOCUS FOCUS and FOCUS. Is it too much to ask?

I am expressing my expectation which for him is not realistic. He feels that it is too much and too high for him to achieve. I remind him about his PMR. He was not confident to get 8As. I remembered that it was though at that time to make him to work for 8As. Days and night, with tears in his eyes. I pushed to his maximum. I remembered that his yearly results in form 1, 2 and 3 were not that good and he never had any As. With full support and self-believing, he got As on the subjects he hate the most. At the end of the day, he didnt actually get 8As, he got 5As and 3B. Through hardwork and lots and lots of revision, he managed to get that As. At least 5As and not 5Es. Alhamdulillah.

He had done that before and I believe he can easily repeat that. I will make sure that he allocate his 100% effort on his SPM 2011. Hence, this blog will capture my effort to prepare my eldest son for his SPM in 2011. I know it will never be easy. He is now matured than before, his needs is different. He think differently. More rebellious. Always try to get his way on things he want to do or say. His interest has grown from just PS2 to outing with friends. His friends seem more influential than me. Or can I say that he loves his friend more than me? But, mother will always do what she need to do. And that is me! I will make sure he get his As in his SPM. Wish me luck!